That letter's not written by me, but I wish is was, it's much less bitter than my letter...
I'm so sorry...I didn't mean what I said. I'm not angry or annoyed at you at all. I'm hurting and grieving but I don't blame you. I wanted to feel bitter and to find some way of faulting you so it would be easier to let you go. But really I can't hate you, or fault you, or blame you at all. The way it ended was just unfortunate...we shouldn't have let it get to that but I just couldn't let go of my feelings for you.
I've been reminded that I shouldn't be bitter, and I'm not. I still care about you just as much, only from a distance. I hope that my feelings will someday be towards you as just a friend and I hope that we can have a normal friendship but right now I understand that we can't do that, my feelings for you are too great and it wouldn't be fair on either of us to pretend that it's any other way.
I've also been reminded to just keep trusting in God. Pastor said something on Sunday that really spoke to me about how sometimes our plans just don't work out because God has a bigger plan for us, whether that's together or apart.
I will wait for you if it's right to, I just wish I could know that you'll do the same.
